{"id":3953,"date":"2024-05-15T08:15:31","date_gmt":"2024-05-15T05:15:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/?p=3953"},"modified":"2024-05-15T08:19:20","modified_gmt":"2024-05-15T05:19:20","slug":"halide-infinite-permanet-and-eternal","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/3953\/halide-infinite-permanet-and-eternal\/","title":{"rendered":"\u2018\u2019 Halide \u2018\u2019:\u00a0 Sonsuz, Daimi ve Ebedi!"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Sevgili ArtTmodernmiami okurlar\u0131!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u015fte yine beraberiz! Umar\u0131m beraberli\u011fimizin \u015fu ana kadar olan k\u0131sm\u0131ndan sizlerde memnun kalm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r. Umar\u0131m yaz\u0131lar\u0131mdan keyif alm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131mdan keyif ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek beni motive ediyor. Yorumlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 esirgemeyin olur mu? \ud83d\ude0a<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gelelim bu ayki yaz\u0131m\u0131za\u2026 Bildi\u011fim kadar\u0131yla May\u0131s ay\u0131 t\u00fcm d\u00fcnyada anneler g\u00fcn\u00fc. Bende size m\u00fcthi\u015f bir kad\u0131n\u0131 annemin hik\u00e2yesini anlatmak istiyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ailemizin birli\u011fini sa\u011flay\u0131p, yoktan var eden, do\u011furan, doyuran, koruyan en de\u011ferli varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z biricik anneme ithaf olunur!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Y\u0131l 1927\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de Cumhuriyet ilan edileli hen\u00fcz 4 y\u0131l olmu\u015f, uzun s\u00fcren sava\u015flar sonras\u0131 \u00e7ok yorgun ve toparlanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan halk, 1929 sonbahar\u0131nda ba\u015flayan d\u00fcnya \u00f6l\u00e7e\u011findeki ekonomik buhranla bo\u011fu\u015fuyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ege b\u00f6lgesinde kasabada bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu do\u011fmu\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0131n\u0131 sonsuz, daimi ve ebedi anlam\u0131na gelen \u2018\u2019 Halide \u2018\u2019 koymu\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Elbette ki g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcze kadar s\u00fcrecek uzun hayat yolculu\u011funu ve 0\u2019nu nelerin bekledi\u011fini kendisi de bilmiyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Halide\u2019nin bir erkek karde\u015fi olmu\u015f. Annesi Necmiye(1) e\u015finin zamans\u0131z \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc ile gen\u00e7 ya\u015fta 2 \u00e7ocukla dul kalm\u0131\u015f ve bir daha evlenmemi\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Halide \u00e7ok g\u00fczel ve al\u0131ml\u0131 bir gen\u00e7 k\u0131zm\u0131\u015f ve evlenmi\u015f. E\u015fi olan Demir(2) Yugoslav g\u00f6\u00e7meniymi\u015f ve Demir\u2019in en b\u00fcy\u00fck \u015fans\u0131 Halide olmu\u015f. Denizci olarak tam 36 ay zorunlu askerlik yapm\u0131\u015f. Bu nedenle Halide, evliliklerinin ilk y\u0131llar\u0131nda yaln\u0131z kalm\u0131\u015f. \u00dcstelik hamileymi\u015f ve maddi zorluklarla m\u00fccadele etmek zorunda kalm\u0131\u015f. Evliliklerinden bir k\u0131z, 2 erkek \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 olmu\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir taraftan \u00e7ocuk yeti\u015ftirip, bir taraftan ev i\u015fleri yapan Halide, ev ekonomisine katk\u0131 sa\u011flamak i\u00e7in becerilerini ve yeteneklerini kullanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f. Sa\u00e7 kesiyor, ond\u00fcla(3) yap\u0131yor ve ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kasabada tan\u0131nmas\u0131na vesile olan \u00f6rg\u00fc i\u015fi ile hat\u0131r\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131r bir \u00e7evresi olu\u015fuyormu\u015f. K\u0131zlardan bir ekip kurarak \u00f6rg\u00fc makinalar\u0131 ile verilen sipari\u015fleri yeti\u015ftirmek i\u00e7in gecelerini g\u00fcnd\u00fczlerine katm\u0131\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ben; \u00e7ocukluk, ergenlik ve gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131m\u0131 ya\u015fan\u0131lan bu zor d\u00f6nemlerin fark\u0131nda olmadan b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm. Biraz \u015fansl\u0131yd\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc benim hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u00f6nemlerde babam ticaret yap\u0131yordu. Bu d\u00f6nemler annemin art\u0131k rahat oldu\u011fu d\u00f6nemlerdi. Abim babam\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131. Ablam \u00f6\u011fretmen olmu\u015ftu. Ben sanat okumak i\u00e7in \u00f6nce \u0130zmir, sonra da \u0130stanbul\u2019a gitmi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Halide\u2019yi, annemi 18 \u015eubat 2024 \u2018de kaybettik. O art\u0131k yok! Tam 9 y\u0131l s\u00fcren \u00e7a\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n vebas\u0131 Demans ile m\u00fccadele etti. Bunun 6 y\u0131l\u0131 yatakta ge\u00e7irdi. Onu rahat ettirebilmek ve can\u0131na can katabilmek i\u00e7in \u00e7ok m\u00fccadele verdik. Ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 hafifletmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. En korktu\u011fu \u015fey karanl\u0131kt\u0131. Bununla ilgili \u00e7ocukluk ve gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131ndaki zor d\u00f6nemlerin getirisi travmalar\u0131 vard\u0131. Demans nedeniyle s\u0131k ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ataklardan, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc hal\u00fcsinasyonlardan bu \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131m\u0131m\u0131z olu\u015fmu\u015ftu. \u00c7ocukluk ve gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131 hari\u00e7, yak\u0131n d\u00f6neme ait hi\u00e7 bir hat\u0131ras\u0131 yoktu. \u00c7ok ac\u0131 olsa da bizleri tan\u0131m\u0131yor ve kim oldu\u011fumuzu bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Can\u0131m annemle hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcresince s\u00fcrekli ileti\u015fim kurmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Onunla sohbet ettim. S\u00f6ylediklerini dinledim. S\u00f6zlerinden anlamlar \u00e7\u0131karmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ona g\u00fczel s\u00f6zler s\u00f6yledim. Hatta bug\u00fcne kadar dile getiremedi\u011fim ne varsa dile getirdim. Kula\u011f\u0131na f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m. \u00c7ok ilgin\u00e7tir ki beni hat\u0131rlamasa da birbirimize sevgi s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri s\u00f6ylemeyi b\u0131rakmad\u0131k. Sar\u0131ld\u0131k, \u00f6p\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck\u2026 Sanki her \u015fey yar\u0131m kalan yerden devam ediyordu. Hi\u00e7 ayr\u0131lmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Son nefesinde yan\u0131nda olmay\u0131 hep istemi\u015ftim. Nitekim de \u00f6yle oldu. Kollar\u0131mdayd\u0131. O sahne hi\u00e7 akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131kmayacak. Elimden bir \u015fey gelmedi ve ellerimden kay\u0131p gitti\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Karanl\u0131ktan korkan annemi \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa ellerimle yollad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir s\u00fcredir \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bir son olarak g\u00f6rm\u00fcyorum. Annemin bu bedendeki ve bu \u00e2lemdeki zaman\u0131n\u0131 tamamlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve ruhunun ba\u015fka bir \u00e2lemde ya\u015famaya devam etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Ve hatta bu d\u00fcnyada da; ablam, abim ve benim h\u00fccrelerimde mitokondrileri ile ya\u015famaya devam ediyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6yleymi\u015f ya\u2026 Mitokondriler kal\u0131t\u0131msal olarak \u00e7ocu\u011fa annesinden ge\u00e7ermi\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eimdi annemi her \u00f6zledi\u011fimde i\u00e7imde bana miras kalan enerjisini hissetmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Ne zaman duygusal anlamda bo\u015flu\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fsem i\u00e7imde hayata tutunmama yard\u0131mc\u0131 olan, beni tutup aya\u011fa kald\u0131ran arma\u011fan\u0131 mitokondrileri ile yoluma devam ediyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annenin \u00e7ocu\u011fuyla aras\u0131ndaki o hani ad\u0131n\u0131 tam olarak koyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z duygusal ba\u011f san\u0131r\u0131m bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yani arkada\u015flar, bizim ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n enerjisi annemizden geliyor. Ben de O\u2019ndan bana ge\u00e7en bu miras\u0131 hakk\u0131 ile ya\u015fayarak devam ettirmek istiyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annemi \u00e7ok \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum. A\u011fz\u0131ndan te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim laf\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmeyen kibar kad\u0131n: Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum. Emin ol hi\u00e7 unutulmayacaks\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Sana bu anneler g\u00fcn\u00fcnde ne \u00e7i\u00e7ek, ne hediye alabildim anneci\u011fim. Yapabilece\u011fim tek \u015fey ruhun i\u00e7in dua etmek ve bu yaz\u0131m ile sana bu d\u00fcnyadan unutulmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n mesaj\u0131n\u0131 yollamak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Umar\u0131m yerine ula\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hakk\u0131n\u0131 helal et. Benimki sana helal Halide!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u00fcm annelerin anneler g\u00fcn\u00fc kutlu olsun!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sizin annenize hediyeniz ne?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

( 1 ) Necmiye: Y\u0131ld\u0131zlara ait olan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

( 2 ) Demir: Demir gibi sa\u011flam, dayan\u0131kl\u0131, g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

( 3 ) Ond\u00fcla: Sa\u00e7 ma\u015fas\u0131. Eski d\u00f6nemlerde kad\u0131nlarda uygulanan s\u0131cakl\u0131k ile sa\u00e7\u0131n yap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirerek sa\u00e7a \u015fekil vermeye yarayan bir i\u015flem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamil \u00c7ak\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Sevgili ArtTmodernmiami okurlar\u0131! \u0130\u015fte yine beraberiz! Umar\u0131m beraberli\u011fimizin \u015fu ana kadar olan k\u0131sm\u0131ndan sizlerde memnun kalm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r. Umar\u0131m yaz\u0131lar\u0131mdan keyif alm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131mdan keyif ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek beni motive ediyor. Yorumlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 esirgemeyin olur mu? \ud83d\ude0a Gelelim bu ayki yaz\u0131m\u0131za\u2026 Bildi\u011fim kadar\u0131yla May\u0131s ay\u0131 t\u00fcm d\u00fcnyada anneler g\u00fcn\u00fc. Bende size m\u00fcthi\u015f bir kad\u0131n\u0131 annemin hik\u00e2yesini anlatmak istiyorum. Ailemizin birli\u011fini […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":3954,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[68],"tags":[21,99,101,123,75,98],"translation":{"provider":"WPGlobus","version":"3.0.0","language":"tr","enabled_languages":["en","tr"],"languages":{"en":{"title":true,"content":true,"excerpt":false},"tr":{"title":true,"content":true,"excerpt":false}}},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3953"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3953"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3953\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3961,"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3953\/revisions\/3961"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3954"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3953"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3953"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arttmodernmiami.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3953"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}